Myene Yanu
After Solitaire
Fantasia
infantilizes me
tight jaw
on the solitaire computer
solving spades
restoring order
I understand that we are electrical systems
Alarms go off
armour is built
While
after I win
cards fan out and shuffle
The flash ad yells
How old is your brain ! *animated waves crash the screen*
A woman pops up in the water, even though she is dry-
the dry solitaire computer woman
She yells at me too
Completely free!
Gorgeous graphics!
No wifi necessary!
Smooth animation!
No ads!
Lobster mania 4!
Big wheel bonus!
Pure jigsaw for adults!
License to sin!
A wish unfulfilled
To attain the most perfect
possible measure of reality witness
discomfort mistaken for conflict
Free chips
Buffalo *pixelated buffalo stampede*
Enjoy the orchestra
Of a coin avalanche
Dispose libido
the spiritual activity
give it to the game
A disturbance in the redirecting of shame
And emotional scarcity
Double down casino
Shame on you says the dry solitaire computer woman
Recover your soul!
Become a body ego!
Update required!
Fantasia has grown tired of me
If you are prone to deception
Spontaneity
Question
Method
Data
Conclusion
The activities that liberate us from the daunting
volley of direction
of betrayal
of consequence
of mythology
of ambiguous loss
and the premonitions that permutate cellular levels
In the body who clings
To contamination
To become a stranger to the self
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Virtue or victim
As the result of another
I explain
To explain why
And I keep explaining why I’m explaining
Why I keep explaining
Why past tense
Passed by
Precarious structures
Neuropathways of those
possessed by celestial hierarchies
Intruding on sensible
conclusions
the doctor says conditional
Is not all encompassing and that the hallmark
Of this malady is ongoing
Question marks
And not to scare me but
Sick end visions
Are highly probably
If, at last
indulged and unpurged
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Myene Yanu is a poet and artist living in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. She can be read in Works and Days Vol. 2 and Peel Lit. Her audio chapbook, Fantasy Audio Only (Peace Isn't Luck, 2022), can be listened to via YouTube or Bandcamp.